Day 10: I'm giving up.

I didn't really read over the 30 day thing until now and I decided I dislike it, so I'm just going to write about what my heart fancies...

Lately I've had an overwhelming feeling of loneliness, even when I'm with my friends. It just seems like everyone is finding their place in the world and are content with what's going on with them. Being around people reminds me of that. Even getting on facebook lately has just drained me because I feel so unprepared to face another day. I just graduated college, I haven't lived with my parents for four year... shouldn't I have this more figured out? I've been trying to keep my mind busy with superficial things, but it obviously isn't working and I know this is just a phase because I go through this loneliness feeling every once in a while, but it's awful. I, more than most people I know, have always needed a good friend to be by my side through thick and thin and lately it's just not happening anymore. I feel like I don't even know who some of my friends are anymore and honestly, I don't really care anymore either. People drift, it's part of life but what am I supposed to do when I feel like drifting to the point where I'm not here anymore?